Good glorious morning to you all! Wow! I feel supercharged today. It’s not entirely my doing I must admit. I’ve had some Angelic help undoubtedly, to gain some solid footing in a perspective of peace, hope, joy and love as we all do at times require in this living. What am I talking about anyways you may be asking yourself. It’s not some hokey pokey deal either. It’s real and tangible and impactful. But I had an absolutely amazing Angelic Reiki healing session blessed to me from good friend of my heart. The result of that session is a large part of todays message.
You see, I was certain I had found myself a universal loop hole of sorts in fact. I had been living by the tenets of this loophole for years, unbeknownst to me that it was not in fact a loophole at all but that I had in terms of my attempts to protect my heart and thus myself created pain and fed the very thing I had attempted to avoid thusly rooting sorrow in myself on some level.
How did I manage this amazing feat you may be wondering. Well as only my uniquely sassy and pure heart could create. I had figured that if I only gave love to the fullest of my ability with no true expectation of its return or desire I could simply keep walking in love no matter what may surround me. I was right on some level in this approach as it was the secondary driver to this intention that ended up being not so effective in the long term.
That part was the part where I expected and accepted that the love I gave others would never return to me. Not only would it never return but that I would never expect it on any level and that I would be able to in drawing from a Divine source be able to eternally give it. I was right on some levels but as we are humans living a human experience the burden as you may imagine of living this way led my heart to such sorrow.
Such a deep salty sorrow I would often seek consolation in that same divine energy to recover from. The divine was the only source I would allow any love to enter my heart from. Well to be entirely honest, the divine and also my children of course. Who have blessed me with moments of such pure and innocent love I have at times been brought to tears at the power and majestic beauty of moments etched in time eternally.
But I was wrong. In this living we are called to allow ourselves to both receive and give love. That only in the receiving of love and loving energies in the ways we give it which in my case are of pure intention and purpose are we gifted a new perspective. In that moment of realization I came to a place of such brightness in my soul I felt I was shining. I can still feel the remnants of a dissolving block upon my heart but I am happy to say that I am now willing to receive in healthy, constructive and of pure intent ways that which I have so many times given.
No road is perfect and I appreciate the richness of my own path and the blessing I have, to share the love in my heart with so many. Better then that even, is the fact that I feel as if I’ve opened up an entirely new realm of possibility for joyful living. It’s not that I ever felt I don’t deserve love. In fact the opposite is the case. It’s more simply put that I felt a safety in seeking that power from a divine source as I was not blessed with a foundational core of that at all in my life growing up.
Love became corrupted early on in my journey. Not the love I had to give nor the desire I held even as a baby in my at times I am certain and have been told rather relentless crying for it. But my experience of it was instantly diverted upon birth from a Holy love that I hold so dear to this day to a very worldly and yes, corrupt and manipulative form of what one labelled love. A simple lack of the ability to choose a vision to see beyond illusion and clearly witness, experience and embrace the true wealth and value of love in its simple and pure form.
I spent many years of my life desperately trying to help the same people see, comprehend, fully grasp and yes even live daily that same treasure. One can see how I came to the place I did in the proverbial loophole of the universe I felt I had found. It was as I have stated before more then once. It was for protection. Protection of the thing that I knew could take me down to despair and that I never wanted to see happen to anyone around me.
So valiant an effort I would put forth if I so much as glimpsed a trifling bit of pain or suffering in the eyes of others so as to hopefully prevent them from feeling anywhere near the sorrow I had experienced in my living. So valiant an effort that I would forgot or dismiss entirely that I was at many times feeding my own self more pain and suffering. Oftentimes those whom you choose to bless this with will not ever see the value you have placed before them in their chosen blindness. They are not wrong for doing this either. They are just on a different path with different lessons but we all end up in the proverbial soup. Each one of us bringing our unique blessings perspectives and beauty to it.
So today I implore each and every one of you reading this to allow love to enter your hearts. Yes I will always ask this of each and every one of you as I ask it of myself because it is truly the root of all that is worthy in this life and living. Whether it be the love with which I type these words with pure intention to assist, guide and heal. Or whether it be from the loving presence of your animals or the Divine or maybe someone just popped into your mind as you read this. Allow yourselves to be loved so that you may flow in more strength bringing blessings upon this earth that we all need.
I love you all.
Ps Todays podcast is up and I’m talking about my mornings adventures and the treasures one can encounter by freely going with the flow as it is presented to us each moment of each day.
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