I love to dance. In fact dancing has been one of the movement modalities that has gotten my body through some of the most emotionally intense moments of my life. I started to dance when I was a small child. It was an allowable format for me to feel energy. I could move and noone would tell me not to. I could even make people smile if I was graceful enough in the fluidity and movements held within my dance.
I spent hours upon hours in the garage as a child, away from judgement and worry and free from fear so long as I was in my dusty musty dance stage of international audience. At least that is what I was building in my mind as I awkwardly loped across the concrete. I would listen to classical music come through the headphones of my fathers walkman he used for his bike rides. Actually now that I think of it, I am shocked he let me touch it, so I may have snuck it. hehe
Why all this waxing poetic about my youthful years you may be wondering? Well it serves a purpose believe it or not. I would like for you to find a memory from your own childhood. It may be simple or it may be complex but what it must do is carry an emotion within its precious depths. An emotion of joy. A memory of a time when you did indeed hold that so precious treasure simply because it was yours to have. Not because you paid for it or you feel you deserve it or any other reason. Simply because it was yours to have.
It is still yours to have, I hope you realize. Still. Even after all these years and so many salty moments when tears flowed freely, regardless of whether that was perceived as deserved or not. You see, Joy is ours to have. We are allowed to embrace, live and love that very emotion. Joy. It is when we operate from this emotion that we can bring to ourselves and our lives, amazing miracles and abundance our mind may struggle to perceive entirely.
If you don’t think Joy is yours to have then ask yourself why you feel that way and I can assure you that after enough digging or perhaps after only a moments focus you will come to find that the reasons for your perception that Joy is not yours to access, have been placed there by others. Whether they be in the form of a judgement that made you wince with rebellion or succumb to the humility of change or even the soft words spoken by one who has themselves blocked this so unconsciously, that they seek to block its arrival in others without even knowing they are doing it. So as to preserve their own perception as being relevant and vital against the deep rooted fear someone or something placed there that was the opposite of that truth. Judgement is not always done from a place of anger or hostility you see.
It’s funny isn’t it? How we are so smart we can run circles around ourselves as we seek to justify the things that at times are not deserving of the justification of further existence. The things that if we were to release them we would allow for healing and such a brilliant and beautifully bright future to unfold. The things we at times cling to for so many reasons but which can always be sourced back to fear manifesting its presence in one way or another.
Whether it be fear of change or fear of rejection or fear of hostility to name a few as there truly are infinite potential masks for the essence of this energy. Fear can have such a paralytic effect on us. It can rob us of our dreams and force us into the very same box it had us fearful of living in if we didn’t take the action that fear would like for us to not take. Divine irony, with at times a splash of comedy if you look close enough.
Think a little deeper about it and you also find that fear serves one root cause. I love to find the root of issues and fear is like a dandelion. You can keep cutting the top off but if you don’t deal with the root it will keep coming back. Also a dandelion root is one large root. Any gardener knows if you get all of that root then you wont have that dandelion coming back.
Some people use strong chemicals to kill dandelions. Chemically burning them into submission, which seems to work for a bit at least. But which then also pollutes the surrounding soil and impacts other forms of creation such as bees which are vital to our survival. We as humans can also choose to do this with our fears but unlike the dandelions that die completely from the treatment we can find that fear is much more resilient in its survivability and transformative potential.
“The cat came back the very next day, The cat came back they thought he was a goner, But the cat came back… He just couldn’t stay away” They say cats have 9 lives right? Well fear has infinity plus one and the only way out is through it. Facing our fears. Doing the things within reason of course, that we find hold fear potential to us.
Someone said once that when you feel afraid is when you should most do something because that is when God is trying the most to reach you and show you something. Now hang on a minute because I can practically hear some readers debating me on that one. “Oh yeah? Well I’d say fear of the edge of the cliff is reasonable and relevant and saves you from dying from a fall off the edge.” To which I would reply. Sure. I am not after all saying to feel the fear at the edge of a cliff and know you will splat at the bottom but to walk off it anyways because after all maybe God is trying to show you how to fly…. I mean come on.
Discernment.. See this is where we discuss the difference between discernment and judgement. To discern is to recognize potentials and consequences or rewards and to act in manners that support the potentials, consequences or rewards that one would wish to blossom in ones life to suit the most joyful living possible.
Judgement rears it’s ungodly head and can see the same things however in its crafty ways of self imposed egoic superiority it has to belittle and attack in order to justify ones own singular perspective and path. Judgement cannot allow any other then it’s own personally perceived superiority. Knowing full well that it does change and adapt and may one day do the very same thing that the judgement was passed upon yet not caring because the purpose of judgement is to stunt growth.
I have found personally, in my living that judgement can be a trait of very wounded people who are generally unwilling, unable or unaware of self growth, improvement and healing. It never gets them what they seek yet they find themselves bound to the hamster wheel of its sharpness more and more as one seeks to garner support for the distraction from the greater quest of knowing ones self.
The other thing and really the only thing worth actually mentioning about judgement and discernment is that judgment often creates, fosters and fuels more pain in the judged. Whereas discernment recognizes things not in alignment with ones own personal perspective or values and simply allows it to exist. Discernment is akin to a divine and gansta Godly version of MYOB. (Minding your own business)
Follow your hearts! Operate from your heart center consciously and by choice. Be the love you seek and be damned anyone who doesn’t like your shining so brightly. Why would they take issue with that anyways? Hint…. It has nothing to do with you no matter what they may say.
I love you all!
The Every Moment Mystic 