Choosing Sunshine Over The Eternal Mind

Thoughts, thinking, distractions and drinking.. whooops nope just kidding. I don’t actually drink. It just flowed all together like that so I rolled with it baby! Ohh the power of our minds and our thoughts. Ohh the influence of unconscious distractions vs the power of purposeful momentum.

I have spent a tremendous amount of time wrapped in my thoughts over my lifetime. Most often I have been drawn to the piecing together of the answer to the most famous and oft uttered phrase “Why?”. At times I have been able to track the source of the why with an external lens to a situation and have been able to utilize that knowledge towards the goal of my own personal growth at other times the lack of an answer has been the answer that set my foot upon the path to figure out a greater language in a sense.

A language of energy. I learn every single day how to speak this language with ease and fluency. I set my intention to maintain and at times foster awareness of the more subtle influences in life and living and it is such a curiosity for me to witness their unfolding. From the moments I am simply following my intuition with no idea why. To the moments that often follow this happening, where I am awed by the divine magnificence and perfection of everything as it all just pieces together. This happens to me in large and small ways and it can happen for you as well if you begin to notice it. If I am looking for something I say it out loud and follow my intuition, lo and behold without the interference of my mind I find it in record time every time. If I use only my mind at times to find the things I am looking for I can end up taking much longer and feeling way lower as well.

A mind is such a powerful thing. It can literally build life or destroy it. Little else holds such a vast selection of potentials. Let alone something intrinsic to our life and bodies living. The mind, what a gift and at times what a feeling as though it is a curse. Yet one cannot truly at times comprehend the true wealth of a blessing until it is gone. There are times in this life and living that we may not notice or we may take for granted the blessings in our lives. These are the moments when we are called to remember their beauty most of all.

If we allow our minds to behave as spoilt children we will find ourselves feeling like a toddler after a day at the fair. Overwhelmed, burnt out and crashing hard from a sugar high with dull eyes from staring at all the once gorgeous bright flashy lights of the Midway. It’s fine to do this as well because it is but a step in the process. It is also fact however that we realize as we allow for the passage of time that it may not be the best thing to eat a full elephants ear in record time because it is so tempting and delicious. We realize the cost of the temporary flush of reward chemistry is just that, temporary. Then perhaps we seek a more permanent and lasting sensation as we are after all, creatures of power, pleasure and peace naturally.

Thusly the journey begins to awareness. As we seek to build, support, grow and nurture our own Divinely inspired joy we realize it’s source is internal. This is great news as cheesy as it may feel if you are reading that for the first time. It means we are never without access to it. It means that we do not need to seek outside of ourselves the source of this.

It doesn’t mean we may not need help in this at some point. Supportive, loving and kind people and communities that place value on principles that carry true worth and who do not fall to the weakness of error in this respect. We can all use a kind voice to help guide us back to our hearts song at times. For me that voice is always consistently found in the forest, in nature and with the trees. I am able to step outside of my suffering easily and have my entire lifetime as soon as there are no people around me and it is just me and the trees. Those silent watchers and earths guardians carrying such gentleness and strength in their ageless and aged forms.

I walk upon those trails and I talk with God. I send my tears to the soil and hug the trees for solace. I do feel a bit at times as though I could end up some form of a ghost walking along whereby people only catch fleeting glimpses as I pass and wonder if they really did see me or not. I feel like that the days I set out upon the trail with a broken heart as I step one foot in front of the other and wonder where it really is all leading to and at times stubbornly battling a deep desire to know all the answers.

I am an insatiably curious soul as are many of you my dear readers and that is why I know you will understand what I am saying here.

The mind is often used by ourselves as a tool to justify our egoic actions. The mind is the one that says “psst hey you! Yeah you! I know you want to have (fill in the blanks with any worldly distraction). You don’t have to do it that way that your heart is telling you! HA! That sucker is always wrong. It leaves you broken and crying on the floor. Why would you listen to that beawtch! Follow me instead! I’ll get you there in half the time and you just do everything I say sometimes even before I say it because I will train you so well. Don’t worry about anyone other then yourself. You are the only one that matters because if you don’t look after you noone else ever will. He he You’ll make a great show pony”

Then if we listen to it we stop hearing the song of our heart. The one that says “If you stay strong and steady you can achieve anything you want. If you stay honorable and committed to integrity, empathy, kindness and consideration of others then you will eventually make it to a destination well worth the journey. It wont always be easy and you will cry and feel broken as you find the parts of you that need healing at times. But there will come a day when that no longer happens because if you only trust me I will show you the way. I promise”

If you’ll notice that the mind often carries a similar soundtrack to the heart with one vital and core contrast. When the same statements are uttered from a heart space they become powerful in a deep way. However when they are uttered from the mind in service of the ego the very same words can become toxic.

Try this..

Stand in front of the mirror and think of something in your life that is impacting you on an emotional level.

Now without using your heart at all no emotions, only logical rational reasoning, look at yourself in that mirror state “I’m worthy and deserving of the best life has to offer.”

How does that feel?

Now using your heart and opening to the purity of its tender depths of acceptance, gratitude and love say the very same thing “I’m worthy and deserving of the best life has to offer”

Look in your own eyes while you utter each statement and notice the difference. It is ok if you cried when you came from your heart. It only means that your mind was running a false dialogue and had you distracted to your own true worth. The mind had you feeling and perhaps rightfully so in some instances that you had the power and authority and that “they” should bow to your will (want). The heart reminded you that without the hearts treasure the minds efforts are flat and empty in the long run.

Perhaps when you uttered the statement for the first time you also ran scenarios of how you would be supremely victorious in your desires attainment. You are smart so you have all the avenues covered and there’s no way you’re not getting what you deserve because you so rightfully desire it. Or so the ego led you to believe.

Until you opened your heart and uttered the same statement and allowed for the blossoming of the true depth of Divine power. It may have brought to the surface an emotion as you looked into your own eyes and saw the truth the actual truth of the words you uttered. Your mind and ego together had you subconsciously convinced you were in fact undeserving so as to foster dependence upon it’s false super power of ultimate distraction.

Which felt better and which provided you with a result you found positive and can see the usefulness of in the long term? I know my choice personally.

On that note I shall leave you for today and head out for a morning podcast recording perhaps or maybe I will go live from the docks again via fb.. You should check it out if you want to catch some epic views and a decent tranquility vibe.

I love you all!